Restoring Your Innocence

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One of the keys of inner healing is to understand God wants to restore your innocence. Think a minute. Where did innocence begin?

Easy. In the Garden of Eden, no one had fallen into sin. No faults, no regrets, nothing to offend your conscience. God, man and woman were in perfect harmony. Sweetness existed. Their consciences were perfect with the living God. Sin entered. This mess continued until our Lord Jesus died on the cross to provide salvation and healing to every person who would avail himself/herself of this incredible healing. Jesus is called “the Second Adam” in scripture forever releasing people from The Fall:

As Paul puts it crisply in 1 Corinthians 15:22, “For as in Adam all die, so also in Christ shall all be made alive.” Through Adam, sin and death entered into the world. By Christ, sin and death were conquered. Adam forfeited life by his disobedience. Christ achieved life by His obedience. These simple, basic truths, Paul tells the Corinthians, are the very structure and content of the gospel.

Sadly, most people today have in some way have been violated, and have not received this healing. Twenty percent of young women who attended college during the past four years say they were sexually assaulted, according to a Washington Post-Kaiser Family Foundation poll. But the circle of victims on the nation’s campuses is probably even larger.


At least 1 in 6 men have been sexually abused or assaulted. Researchers have found that at least 1 in 6 men have experienced sexual abuse or assault, whether in childhood or as adults. And this is probably a low estimate, since it doesn’t include non-contact experiences, which can also have lasting negative effects. If you’ve had such an experience, or think you might have, you are not alone.


Twenty percent of young women who attended college during the past four years say they were sexually assaulted, according to a Washington Post-Kaiser Family Foundation poll. But the circle of victims on the nation’s campuses is probably even larger.

College sexual assault, a long-hidden problem, emerged as an issue in the 1980s along with the term “date rape,” describing a certain kind of sexual crime involving friends or acquaintances. The date rapist — someone who ignored a “no” or never sought a “yes” — contrasted with the stereotype of the rapist as a predator lurking in the dark.

In addition, Sex trafficking is a $150 billion business, selling people for profit, primarily females for sex. The movie, Taken, provides an astonishing glimpse into this hellish trade of abducting, drugging and selling women as prostitutes.


Studies by David Finkelhor, Director of the Crimes Against Children Research Center, show that:

One in 5 girls and 1 in 20 boys is a victim of child sexual abuse; Selfs-report studies show that 20% of adult females and 5-10% of adult males recall a childhood sexual assault or sexual abuse incident; During a one-year period in the U.S., 16% of youth ages 14 to 17 had been sexually victimized;

Over the course of their lifetime, 28% of U.S. youth ages 14 to 17 had been sexually victimized;

Children are most vulnerable to CSA between the ages of 7 and 13.

If you wonder whether such an experience is major, think of the traumatic and long-term effects of sexual violation and what follows: self-rejection, rage, hate, feeling dirty, judgments against the gender who violated you, and often hatred toward who “allowed it happen,” especially God.

The spirit of anyone who’s been violated is defiled. The spirit is you. Yes, it goes deeper than your knowledge. Let me explain my own experience.

First, I’ll skip over some birth experiences and jump to four years old. I innocently walked in the park in front of our house — seeking a fun and daily experience of swinging or sliding my way on the city park’s steel swings and slides.  Enter five boys set on molesting a kid for their club initiation.

I walked into a trap that would haunt me for some 55 years. They told me to “be in their club” they had to perform fellatio on me. Well, that happened, and this 4-year-old was violated. Crazily, I remembered this horrific incident for all those years, unsure if it really happened. It was like a shadowy dream that hovered in my brain.

When I was about 60, a prophetic brother called me at work, and asked if I could have lunch with him. In essence, he told me he had a dream the night before in which I was violated in a park at four years old. He said in the dream he was Jesus, who comforted me. So, 56 years later, God revealed my experience to me as real. It explained a lot about the violence of my innocence. His dream was an amazing confirmation.

Satan’s Agenda

His goal is to defile, violate and injure a child as early as possible. That’s right — rape, violate and physically abuse a child — even from the womb. He knows if he can get there early he can set in motion a confused, self-rejecting and enraged child whose spirit is now sending signals to his or her brain that they are messed up, no good and pathetic. He’ll tempt people to rape, physically or verbally abuse an innocent child.

In the Bible, he attempted to kill Moses, the Lord Jesus and others to defile the path they were destined for. Think of Joseph, whose jealous brothers conspired to murder him but ultimately decided to throw in an animal trap (pit). These three overcame this calculated and satanically inspired wickedness to fulfill their destinies — Moses to lead captive Israel out of Egypt, Jesus to overcome death, hell and the grave for all who believe, and Joseph who became governor of Egypt.

No telling the multiple millions of others he has destroyed through his wickedness. Some never make it out of the womb because Satan’s minions lie, attack and push women into aborting the life God created in them. Yes, God forgives, but think of the lives that never saw the light of day or a future to serve the living God. Many of whom could have become incredible doctors, brilliant scientists or others of great influence.

Innocence Destroyed

As I mentioned, the devil is set on destroying innocence. There’s something about knowing one is innocent before God. For example, you get a holy boldness to approach God’s throne. And, no, we don’t have to not have gone through the messy defilement perpetrated on us by some sexual predator. Our own sin can do it. God forgives but guilt may remain. Here what King David said about his own sin and guilt. Note in this passage how the two are separated:

“Blessed is the man to whom the Lord does not impute wickedness, And in whose spirit there is no deceit. When I kept silent about my sin, my body wasted away Through my groaning all the day long. For day and night Your hand [of displeasure] was heavy upon me; My energy (vitality, strength) was drained away as with the burning heat of summer. Selah. I acknowledged my sin to You, And I did not hide my wickedness; I said, “I will confess [all] my transgressions to the Lord ”; And You forgave the guilt of my sin. Selah” (Psalm 32:2-5 Amplified).

God not only forgives sin, but removes haunting guilt that accompanies it. In the last blog, we addressed conscience. The book of Hebrews speaks much of the cleansing Blood of Jesus:

“But when Christ appeared as a High Priest of the good things to come [that is, true spiritual worship], He entered through the greater and more perfect tabernacle, not made with hands, that is to say, not a part of this [material] creation. He went once for all into the Holy Place [the Holy of Holies of heaven, into the presence of God], and not through the blood of goats and calves, but through His own blood, having obtained and secured eternal redemption [that is, the salvation of all who personally believe in Him as Savior]. For if the sprinkling of [ceremonially] defiled persons with the blood of goats and bulls and the ashes of a [burnt] heifer is sufficient for the cleansing of the body, how much more will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal [Holy] Spirit willingly offered Himself unblemished [that is, without moral or spiritual imperfection as a sacrifice] to God, cleanse your conscience from dead works and lifeless observances to serve the ever living God?” (Hebrews 9:11-14 )

The key word here again is conscience. Notice that the application of the Blood cleanses the conscience, thus washing away past experiences that were defiling the human spirit. Lately, the Holy Spirit has been reminding me of things that bothered me — things that made me wince from my past, or even movie scenes that plagued my conscience.

Whatever you have done, seen or felt can be washed away. You just have to believe and ask. Yes, it may take some time, but you will feel new and clean — He will cleanse your conscience!

The steps:

  • The way we deal with this trauma is to disassociate. We disassociate by not remembering our past hurts, past hurts caused at any age by friends, family and strangers. Since those past hurts (soul wounds) haven’t been healed by Jesus they open the doorway, which gives the enemy a legal right to torment us (Matthew 18:23-35). The enemy torments us through these past soul wounds and it can affect us in our minds (with feelings of hopelessness that bring with it elevated emotions such as depression, fear, anxiety, anger, rejection, abandonment or despair) it can also affect us in our bodies (with sickness, pain, undiagnosed medical conditions or pain or illness that moves around the body).*Even if you recall this past experience, the “sting” of it can be removed completely!
  • Understand that what happened to you isn’t the real you. When Jesus died on the cross, He not only provided a way for the forgiveness of your sins, He also gave you a new you (Romans 6:6; Galatians 2:20). The old you died, and a new you in your personal spirit was created. When you believed the truth, God sent His Holy Spirit to live in you. This seed must be nurtured and appropriated for healing.

1 Peter 1:23 NIV
“For you have been born again, not of perishable seed, but of imperishable, through the living and enduring word of God.”

  • Forgive your perpetrators. Yes, this can be very hard, but God has provided amazing grace to accomplish this. If you refuse to forgive, your pain will remain, and you will be captive to the remembrance of the event. We pray in the “Lord’s Prayer,” ‘forgive our debts As We Forgive Our Debtors.’ This simply says, God don’t forgive us if we don’t forgive.
  • Jesus Christ is eternal. He is the Alpha and Omega; the beginning and the end. As such, He can step into your past and remove completely from you the pain, embarrassment and shame of the event you encountered. All you need to do is trust Him and ask. If you struggle in faith with this, ask another person more experienced in these things to pray for you.


Lord Jesus Christ, I acknowledge that you are God, and as such, you can heal me of all the guilty feelings and reminders of my sin, whether I was molested, mistreated or abused by another, or something I was responsible for. Your Blood provides miraculous healing of my mind and spirit. I ask you now to enter into my traumatic experience in my past or present. I choose to forgive all who were responsible for my pain. Lord, I forgive myself and release myself for willingly becoming a part of the event that shattered me or others involved. I thank you for promising me that I may become innocent again. All this I pray in your Mighty Name. Amen.

Joseph Beckham is the author of Deeper Water for Thirsty Souls –

Soul Ties: The Good, the Bad & the Ugly –






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